My Birthday March 26th, 2012

My birthday 3/26/2012

I woke up on a Monday morning thinking "MAN! Why is the weekend over?" only to realize my birthday fell on a dreaded Monday this year!! The only GOOD thing about Monday is the college meeting in Athens, which is always a highlight to the beginning of my week!

This past weekend there were over 700 believers of our Lord Jesus gathered for a annual spring south east blending christian conference, the weekend passed by WAY to fast. And was amazingly enjoyable. I was so happy to have so many friends in town. I didn't get to spend enough time with any of them. I was a taxi driver, to many... And I found myself really warn out the entire weekend! "stupid allergies!" But through it all,  it was a enjoyable weekend! That was what started my birthday week!! Thank You Lord for Your divine dispensing this past weekend! What a great way to start the week...

So back to my birthday ;) since its all about ME!! SO, Anyways... Where did I leave off? Oh yeah, it was Monday morning... (yuck!) hehe! 

I worked the usual 10 hour day, I actually got off a hour earlier than usual, which made my night! I immediately got in my car to drive the hour + that it takes in traffic to get to my favorite city in the world (Athens, GA), btw its more the people than the city, but I really do love Athens, it's just so quaint. I arrived just in time for dinner at "student station" (the meeting hall in Athens), and after dinner there was the meeting. We reviewed the first message of the conference from this past weekend. The title you ask? Or maybe you didn't... That's okay I'll tell you anyways :) "Experiencing the Pure Gold of the Lampstand"

Here are some main points:
I. The golden lampstand signifies the Triune God embodied and expressed, and the more we experience the detailed aspects of the Triune God depicted in the lampstand, the more we will become in reality the golden lampstand as the embodiment and expression of the Triune God—Rev. 1:12, 20.
II. The lampstand is of pure gold, signifying the divine nature, the eternal, incorruptible nature of God the Father—Exo. 25:31, 36:
III. We may gain God as the golden element of the lampstand by partaking of the divine nature—2 Pet. 1:4:
IV. We may gain God as the golden element of the lampstand by receiving the divine supply through “the sons of oil,” who carry out the new covenant ministry—Zech. 4:2-6, 11-14; 2 Cor. 3:6, 8; 4:12:
V. We may gain God as the golden element of the lampstand by paying the price to buy from the Lord “gold refined by fire”—Rev. 3:18a:

If you are interested in the entire outline, or even the conference messages here is a link to them:

http://m.box.com/view_shared/e47398a6cd7f6b11e2e9

After the meeting I drove back to Atlanta, to my favorite local Chick-fil-a where I enjoyed a birthday chocolate cookies and cream milkshake! Oh so yummy! 

My only request from the friends, that wanted to do something with me on my birthday, was to go bowling!! I LOVE bowling, and it was SO much fun :)! Four of my female friends came with me and we bowled for a hour. I won both games, which made me happy! Not happy that I could beat them, but that I won both games on my birthday! Kinda fun! :D 

I had two of my friends spend the night and we popped in a movie to watch before getting to bed around 3:30am. (I had to be up at 6:30am for work!). 

In the morning when they aroused from sleepville, I made my favorite breakfast, right now "french toast with berry butter!" oh so delish! 

Tonight after work, I went to dinner with my boss, her mother (the old lady I take care of), and my friend Lizzy D, at where else? "Chick-Fil-A" yes I'm a firm believer in eating somewhere often, what can i say!?! when you know what you like, you KNOW what you like! (she also gave me the option of somewhere close, and thats the BEST "close" place ;)!) I also hadn't had Chicky (dinner) since Thursday, so technically it had been "way to long" ;) 

Anyways.. To wrap it up, I had a great birthday, and it's not even half over! 

Tomorrow on my list, I'm making myself a birthday cake and having some people over for dinner. On the menu: Fried chicken, mashed potatoes, spinach strawberry salad, and a "Twix cake" (for celebrating my bday)! Twix cake looks and sounds SO YUMMY! 

Looking forward to the year to come and all the surprises the Lord has in store for me this coming year! I love my God with all my heart, and have all faith this year will be one of the best, just like the last one was! 

Differences in people

Today I invited two different acquaintances of mine to a christian conference that is going on this weekend in Atlanta, GA. 

One of them was so happy, and said: "that's where it's at! Thanks Charity!! High five! I'll try my best to come!"

The second however said: "me and Christian conferences, they just don't go together. Sorry."

God knows who and what He wants. I felt discouraged... But I know, that i took a chance, and now it's in the Lord's hands. It is hard to know who and when the Lord wants me to speak to, but I'm just going to continue on and pray for them both. The Lord works miracles.  

Past, Present, Future!

Until recently... I don't think I truly knew how being in love with someone felt. I say this, because I am IN LOVE with someone currently, and it is a different kind of feeling. It's hard to explain. Being "in love" and "loving" someone is a totally different thing. I'm "in love" with the Lord Jesus! I've loved only a few men in my life, 4 to be exact. I've only been "in love" with just one! (that's not including men in my life that are really good friends, I love them too, I'm talking relationships that lead to more. Specifically marriage, babies, and family...) 

#1 My high school boyfriend, we were "together" for 4 years. We are still friends. He's now married, with a child on the way.

#2 My first adult boyfriend. We dated 6 months. But I have known him since I was 2. So it was a friendship that turned into a relationship, it just turned out we were better friends than anything else. We are still friends, and he just recently got married. 

#3 The boy that I thought was the one. But I was proved wrong on so many occasions. We were together 5 years!! I, to this day don't even say hi when I see him, he broke my heart and shattered it into a million pieces, then jumped on all the millions of pieces that he had thrown down not caring enough to pick them up and give them back to me and say I'm sorry. He has yet to this day, still not apologized for what he did to me. I personally know he's not a good guy. I do wish him well though, and pray that someday he will find the Lord again. I forgave him and moved on, even if he hasn't! life is too short to dwell on such a negative, I've learned from my mistakes. And I try and live my life the way I feel like God wants me to. He was a mistake, but I don't regret those years, I learned a lot of what I don't want in a husband from him. That is a really sad statement, "I learned a lot of what I don't want in a husband from him." but it is a completely true one! 

#4 The man I seriously fell for, I don't even really know him. I've never had the chance to get to know him, and I don't believe I ever will. I know his spirit. I pray for him everyday, that the Lord would do what His will is in his life. I am trying to move on... Just get over him... But I have not been able to. I'm hoping by writing this, it might help me in some way. In the mean time, I'm just throwing what love I do have for him towards the Lord, because I can't tell him "I love you," I show the Lord that i love Him! The Lord is the only one that gets me through my day to day life right now. Without the Lord I would most likely be a very miserable person. Loving someone without the same love returned really hurts and is one of the hardest things I've ever gone through in my life. I never knew something could hurt THIS much. To be honest, I have never been happier in my entire life. But I'm in MORE pain every day than I've ever been in my entire life. So to say the least... I dread seeing this person, and avoid him at all cost, but... Amen Lord! Your will be done! 

I am ready to be married. I am ready to have a husband. I NEED my life companion. I want to have a family someday.  

So for now... I have God. I love Him! He meets my every need. So even though I'm personally lonely in life right now. The Lord is by my side, He will never leave me! I pray everyday that the Lord brings me my perfect someone in His timing, His will, His one, His way! I have given my life fully to God, and will never let Him forget that! Lord keep me in the index of Your eyes!

Waiting on the Lord...

I'm a single and looking gal. Yes I'm looking, I admit it.  But who is single, and not looking? I havent always been single... But I have been for around 3 years now. It's not because no one is asking, it's because I want that perfect someone God has for me. I wasn't looking, at all until last August. Something happened, I'm not going to talk about that. Because to be honest, I'm still hurting from it. But i am going to say: i was a happily, fulfilled, busy woman. I wasn't lonely in the least. I'm still surrounded by all the same things. But for some reason the Lord put in me a desire in the last year, to want a husband. So because I now have this desire, and no husband or boyfriend to speak of... And no prospects... (or none that I feel from the Lord are right for me). I have the Lord as my Husband right now, so I cast all my “loneliness” on Him daily. And fill myself with His love, which is the only real pure love. I’ve been depending on on the Lord my whole life. Now I’m REALLY depending on Him to be sufficient for all my needs, cares, and wants.

The Lord will give me direction eventually. He will bring me my "perfect someone" in His perfect timing. I just have to keep my faith alive and keep my communication with Him moment by moment, day by day. I keep asking Him why...? He will eventually answer all my questions, in one way or another.

 In the last year of my life I have been struggling, struggling to trust in Him for His perfect timing and His perfect will. The results I have found, they have caused my love and relationship with the Lord to just grow deeper. I get to the point where I give up, give it fully to the Lord, and that’s when the Lord comes in and takes care of it fully and even better then I could have ever imagined.

With that said… I will just keep asking, and He’ll answer in His timing. The Lord Loves us more then He can ever show us, sometimes we aren’t paying attention and He does things to make our lives that much better. He is the only one that can satisfy all our needs. I will be patient, keep loving, and no matter what just treat Him like the best friend I've always wanted and have had all along. I will love the Lord whole heartedly. He will bring me everything I need and more in time. And it will all be perfect, because I trusted in Him for everything! 

Artist of the Week: Kyler England

Somehow, I randomly came across this artist "Kyler England" of the "Rescues" I have no-clue why I have not discovered her before. But I am SO HAPPY, that I now know about her. She is my new ultimate favorite female vocalist! She is an amazing singer/song writter I'm loving her songs. Every song that I have heard by her so far, has touched me in some way or form. Take a listen. Here are some of my favorites, and a little bio video.

"I Need You Now" - Kyler England

"When the World Stops Spinning" -Kyler England

"Eye of Your Storm"  - Kyler England



Songs that I love!

I discovered Molly Pardon last summer (2011) at "Park Tavern" in Midtown, ATL, GA. I went to another private concert at "Eddie's Attic" to see Micheal Perryman Jones, in Nov. last year. She was the opening act again!! I was extremely impressed by her amazingly unique voice. I love those voices that just stand out, because they are different than anyother you have ever heard. What a beautiful person. When I met her, she was just as I had imagined she would be. She is a Christian singer, a very sweet and caring person. She is SO nice! So this is a recording of her that I got singing her song called: "travellin souls" Enjoy!

Just in case you don't know who Matthew Perryman Jones is... He is a singer who lives in Nashville, TN. He went to my church as a teenager, so alot of my friends and I know him. Here is one of my favorites by him. "Save you" 

Birthday Month :D

My Birthday is this month, March 26th. I'm not gonna tell you my age, age is just a number. But ever since I have been an "adult" I have a tridition of making myself feel special every day of the month of March, weather it be buying something or making something. That way when no one else buy's me presents, I feel okay about it... because I got 31 ;) JK.. Jokes. I just like making myself feel loved (sometimes), and I currently don't have a husband or boyfriend or male in my life that can or will, so I have to do it myelf ;)Maybe someday God will bring me that perfect someone, and he can make me feel loved everyday of the year, as I will make him feel like that way for everyday of his life for the rest of his life :D! So here are a few things I have done for myself!... judge if you must... but you know youre just jealous!

 bought some beautiful ear rings! $6.99

 went and saw "The Lorax" in IMAX with my friend Erin H. $18

Bought a new Nintendo Iphone 4 case off of Amazon $1.62

made myself a scarf and matching hat (my sister bought me the yarn, free)

Made myself a Hat, which I LOVE (my sister bought this yarn for me too, so free)

My sister recently had another baby girl, her name is Rebecca Doris (named after my late Grandma Doris Holloway, we only just lost her 7 months ago.) These pictures were a present :)

Pour-over coffee at "Two Story, Coffee house" in Athens, GA. This had to be one of the best cups of coffee I've had since living in europe :) $2.62

I finally broke down and bought myself a Georgia Bulldogs hoody, when the price is right.. what can I say? $18

Went and got a manicure, $12

I dyed my hair, Orange/Red with Blonde Highlights. $5

I'm buying a airline ticket this week to go visit my nieces and other relatives in April, in Minneapolis and Rochester, Minnesota. I can't wait to meet my new niece, and see Nora the beautiful! I really miss my family. Priceless! 

Last night I went to visit my little brother.

I miss my family more then words can discribe.

I'm going to be buying a ticket at the end of the month to go see my parents in Cali this summer. And to attend a semi-annual training in Anaheim, CA. I have friends graduating from a two year christian school out there. So I'll be getting to attend their graduation also :)

Priceless

I registered my car this past week, first time I've ever had to do that. it was surprisingly really easy :). $62

This past weekend I spent in Athens, GA that in itself was a treat. But to top it all off... I had friends from FL, TN, CA, TX, NC all there for a Christian Conference I attended. $80

 One of the best weekends of my life. To be perfectly honest, it was the best weekend of my life. I gained SO much. Met some new people, and just really enjoyed myself.
It really was PRICELESS!

I made a decision yesterday, that I think is or might be a good one. But only time will tell. I might enlighten you someday, but for now, I'm keeping my secret!