Waiting on the Lord...

I'm a single and looking gal. Yes I'm looking, I admit it.  But who is single, and not looking? I havent always been single... But I have been for around 3 years now. It's not because no one is asking, it's because I want that perfect someone God has for me. I wasn't looking, at all until last August. Something happened, I'm not going to talk about that. Because to be honest, I'm still hurting from it. But i am going to say: i was a happily, fulfilled, busy woman. I wasn't lonely in the least. I'm still surrounded by all the same things. But for some reason the Lord put in me a desire in the last year, to want a husband. So because I now have this desire, and no husband or boyfriend to speak of... And no prospects... (or none that I feel from the Lord are right for me). I have the Lord as my Husband right now, so I cast all my “loneliness” on Him daily. And fill myself with His love, which is the only real pure love. I’ve been depending on on the Lord my whole life. Now I’m REALLY depending on Him to be sufficient for all my needs, cares, and wants.

The Lord will give me direction eventually. He will bring me my "perfect someone" in His perfect timing. I just have to keep my faith alive and keep my communication with Him moment by moment, day by day. I keep asking Him why...? He will eventually answer all my questions, in one way or another.

 In the last year of my life I have been struggling, struggling to trust in Him for His perfect timing and His perfect will. The results I have found, they have caused my love and relationship with the Lord to just grow deeper. I get to the point where I give up, give it fully to the Lord, and that’s when the Lord comes in and takes care of it fully and even better then I could have ever imagined.

With that said… I will just keep asking, and He’ll answer in His timing. The Lord Loves us more then He can ever show us, sometimes we aren’t paying attention and He does things to make our lives that much better. He is the only one that can satisfy all our needs. I will be patient, keep loving, and no matter what just treat Him like the best friend I've always wanted and have had all along. I will love the Lord whole heartedly. He will bring me everything I need and more in time. And it will all be perfect, because I trusted in Him for everything! 

My Perfect Valentines Day!

I often times wonder what people think of me. I'm always happy and most the time have a smile on my face. I can not find a good reason to be depressed, even if I try really really hard!! People often times will tell me I'm one of the happiest people they know, and they want to know my secret. I have no secrets... I just try and live every day like it's my last. I don't really care what people think of me. I know I can be goofy, crazy, sweet, bluntly honest, totally insane. But I really do love life. I laugh ALL the time, and I'm blessed with some of the greatest friends a woman could ever ask for!

So when everyone is hating Valentines day because they are single... or because they have to find something special and extra ordinary to do for their other half...  I'm thinking of ways to make my close single friends feel like they are loved beyond words! Because this was my very first Valentines day where I didn't have a date, I was open minded about it. It's not like I didn't have people ask me, it's that the right person didn't ask me.

 So yesterday I made a chocolate cake with cream chesse baked into it, with a chocolate ganche frosting, topped with a chocolate heart. I took it to my local hang out spot to give to the employee's! This is something that I do at least twice a week. I like making desserts, so I make them for people I know will appreciate them. They love me for it, and I'm currently one of their favorite patrons. One actually calls me her "favorite person." :). I look at it from this angle: it's the little things that count, the little acts of kindness you do without expecting anything in return. They are the most gratifying, and put a smile on your face as well as other peoples. Putting a smile on someone elses face makes me happy. I live to make people smile, and try for at least one a day!

I also made strawberries dipped in chocolate for one of my best friend's, whom I had a dinner date with. We go out at least 3 times a week together (to Chick fil a), and I wanted to show her how much I appreciate her. As decoration, I cut out red and pink hearts and wrote one word decriptions of things that she is to me. She loved it, Laughed SO hard at the card I had written, that I thought she might just faint if she didn't stop laughing to breath :)!

I walked into Chick Fil A, and immediately sat down with her. I was getting ready to go get my food, and my favorite person just happens to walk up with two very pretty pink chick fil a ice cream cones. He says "Happy Valentines Day, to my two favorite ladies..." He is too sweet (and it helps that he is a hunk).

Later on I was taking the dessert I had made them all up to the counter, he was with another customer. But he took the time to glance over, get big eyed, and that was all I needed, I knew I had made his Valentines day :)!! Later on I believe what was said was... "your dessert once again tasted completely awesome and was very much needed, it made my night!"

It's things like these that make me feel loved, appreciated, and cared about. Because when someone goes out of their way to put a smile on your face, be it valentines day or not, you know they care enough to make the effort. If someone cares enough to make the effort to make you smile, you should know youre special to them.

So my very first single valentines day was a success! I had a great 13 hour work day, followed by a perfectly awesome date with a bestie. Enjoyed the company of some very handsome men. Enjoyed laughs and smiles all throughout the evening. I felt loved, appreciated and special... just like every woman should feel everyday of their life, be it Valentines day or not!